Desire

Desire

Where true Love burns Desire is Love's pure flame;
It is the reflex of our earthly frame,
That takes its meaning from the nobler part,
And but translates the language of the heart.

Samuel Taylor Coleridge

Ahh...Eros in his burning form - the desire to become...to unite...to move beyond and into a higher form. It is one of those days when I am feeling the distance. I don't much feel like talking but I need to feel his presence around me. I desire him, to be with him, to relax together and rest in the quiet. I have no interest in other men. This is something others cannot understand when they are telling me I'm out of my mind...to me it is obvious that those who think distance prevents love shows that they have never truly loved...they do not understand that it knows no boundaries and to fully open to it, that we must surrender. Trying to control it leaves it stagnant and dead because it cannot be controlled...Eros fuels Love. I just read an entire book on this topic and my favorite quote was: "Eros is the transformative force of life, love is the unifying force, and sexuality is the creative force." That's it in a nutshell, isn't it? Then "Eros bridges the gap between sexuality and love, it spans the chasm between two people...it softens and frees the flow of emotion."

Thanks and blessings

I want to give thanks tonight for the blessings in my life. No matter how difficult life gets, no matter how complicated, and despite external complications and occasional disappointments, I remain hopeful and look to the future, knowing that while I've had a lot of hard knocks, I have learned from everything and am becoming more and more defined and refined.

I think of everyone who has touched my life in some way, who have helped me or challenged me, lifted me up or dragged me through the dirt, and I give thanks for all experiences and forgiveness (as best I can). Some things are very difficult to forgive, but I feel that I can forgive even the most difficult. I may never understand why they've done things they've done and I will never condone it, but the difficulties have created 'me' just as much - maybe more so - than the good and easy things.

I feel that SP has touched me at the deepest levels and has helped me through some of the most difficult and trying emotional healing times. I give thanks for his presence in my life and his existence in this world at this time. Across the vast expanse of the ocean, on the other side of the world, across lifetimes...still we have connected and continue to connect and reconnect. I love him more than anyone could imagine and it no longer frightens me. I try to remind myself during the difficult days and moments when I feel our distance too deeply that it was a miracle we connected and that there is and has always been a higher purpose for our relationship, beyond personal love and gratification. Would I do it again? Absolutely. And again and again. Sometimes it is difficult and sometimes I get emotional but I can't imagine what life would be like now if we had never met...and I don't want to imagine it! Ever. I give thanks for my SP and I ask that his goals be met and supported by the Universe (if they are in his Soul's best interest). Please help him to gain the recognition he desires and the strength to make his future all that he wishes it to be.

I give thanks for my children, in their strengths and weaknesses. I ask to be supported in my desire to help make their dreams come true and in my ability to earn more money so that I can support them fully on my own, and not just support them at the bare minimum but healthily. May they always know that I love them and trust that I do my very best to give them the security and love they need and deserve.