I have a new client who came unexpectedly last night and she has lived a very difficult life...one worse - in some ways - than my own, which is difficult to imagine sometimes but the truth. We met today and though she only paid for 30 minutes of tarot - which I never even touched my deck - we were together for 2 1/2 hours. She wanted to pay me more but I said not to worry. I do not feel bad or resentful about it but rather elated and happy that I was able to make a difference. I believe she lost about 100 lbs worth of guilt in our time together and even said how she felt amazing and much lighter. I am tired now but so thankful. Maybe I am poor but when I can make a real difference in my work, it is worth it. I am spiritually rich. I will die knowing that I have made a positive mark on many Souls and that means I will be able to die in peace when it is time. I have a number of things in common with this woman, even the desire to work with children in hospice. When Gare is older and needs less care I would like to volunteer to stay with them while they pass on. I know others may not understand my desire to work with dying children but the main reason I want to is because I can...there aren't too many like me in the world and their souls need love and guidance during transition just as much or more than older people.
Ah well, I have all sorts of plans and ideas and who knows if any of them will become reality. I can see my work/job is already in the process of a shift and I think I like it. I feel blessed today and positive that I am fulfilling contractual obligations as written in my 'contract'. I am so happy that Venus has finally gotten out of my 12th house so that others can 'see' me again and come to me...I am never happier than when I am truly being of service and making a difference for others. I do need to earn a living though too, so it is good that Venus is out of my 12th and she won't return during the retro. I am thinking about doing more work on family dynamics and offering family karma as a specific reading but will see.
Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give.
- Eleanor Roosevelt
Joy can be real only if people look on their life as a service, and have a definite object in life outside themselves and their personal happiness.
- Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy
There are those who give with joy, and that joy is their reward.
- Kahlil Gibran
There is no exercise better for the heart than reaching down and lifting people up.
- John Andrew Holmes Jr., American writer and minister
You will come to know that what appears today to be a sacrifice will prove instead to be the greatest investment that you will ever make.
- Gorden B. Hinkley
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