Dreams

 Now here I go again, I see, the crystal visions

I keep my visions to myself It's only me Who wants to wrap around your dreams and Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?

Dreams

Ahhh....dreams...they come, they go,

they overflow into the crystal visions so many long to know...

Are you still mine?

Time goes by so slowly

and time can do so much

Are you still mine?

I need your love

I...I...need your love

God-speed your love to me...

Unchained Melody

To Breathe in Deeply

 To Breathe in Deeply

There’s a space inside of me,
A wide open space, a meadow of calmness,
Mixed sweet field full of birdsong and laughter -
You are there beside me, the mystery of you,
This connection,
Flowing, gentle river a smile quenching my thirst,
Gliding over me - rays of sunlight against my skin.
 
I’ve known you before forever,
Not always seeing all there was to see, blind to this space,
Not ready for the joy of the field -
Guided to the stormy sea, rocked by waves, torrential rains,
Urged on, eager to test myself against the storm,
My heart beating for release,
Eyes closed tightly, turned inward.
 
But now, now I open my eyes,
I see…oh, how much there is to see, to feel,
To breathe in deeply -
Life.
I ascend to meet you in the meadow,
Sweet song a melody against our lips, shadows sway
As I lie against you, the river wrapping about us,
 
Your smile lighting our space from within.

 

Dena L Moore
April 2, 2021

 The Wall Broken
 
Abyss of uncertainty, the great black hole,
Jagged memories shifting, light-speed,
Unredeemable,
The sense of falling yet standing still,
This is my heart,
How it beats into the void of emotion,
Drowning in the currents, flowing ever faster,
No sense of bearing, or the ability to catch myself,
Lack of solidarity, no earth below,
No ocean, no trees, no black sand beaches,
Where I long to go,
No.
 
Lack of intention, a falsehood mentioned,
Yet I know the truth -
The reaper reaps, as fragments cascade upon one another,
Destroying the foundation, the wall broken, rocks tumbling
Dead weight into…a darkness so dark,
 Indescribable
Black shroud pulled back, tied in place, the fierce beating -
Death approaching.
Disembodied thoughts fight for dominance,
Scattered into space…uncontainable, destructive,
And I fall swiftly back into that place,
Where only I can go.
No…
 
 
Dena L Moore
March 21, 2021

 Lo che non vivo (senza te)...

Gathering Strength

Gathering Strength

 He came, the Destroyer,
Malevolent masked beast digging tunnels,
Scorching earth,
No…no turning back, no rescue forthcoming,
Forlorn but never broken…almost, ah, yes…
Almost

No turning back from this,

But not quite.
The canopy gone, branches bare,
Exposed,
But roots, how deep they run, reaching
Down…so far down where he can’t reach,
The flames can’t reach, can’t go below
Where the tendrils grow…no.

Dipped into the underground waters,
Gathering strength,
Growing in the dark,
In my secret sacred place I am safe,
Safe as I have always been, bending, yes,
Bending…but

My mind does not break.

Dena L Moore
August 5, 2020

 

 

Blue Lotus - updated

I come to you
As I always do, slip into the temple
Where we first kissed;
Our secret space still breathes,
The energy alive, vibrant with our hunger
Pulsating Blue Lotus -
Yes, I am yours.

Left with the memories
Of Blue on Red,
Upper and Lower,
We merge, galaxy within galaxy -
You, the river carving new pathways,
I, the bank capturing your waters,
Still wild, still contained

And I come to you, as I always do,
I slip into our temple,
Our Sacred place,
Still alive, Silent yet vibrating,
You are there, yes, you are always there,
Waiting…
Pulsating Blue Lotus -

I am still yours.

 

Dena L Moore
June 29, 2020 

 

 

 

Blue Lotus

I come to you

As I always do, slip into the temple

Where we first kissed;

Our secret space still breathes,

The energy alive, vibrant with our hunger

Pulsating Blue Lotus -

Yes, I am yours.

Dena L Moore

June 15, 2020

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There's no storm, my love

You're my everything

You'll never have to worry

Never fear for I am near

For, my everything

I live upon the land

And see the sky above

I swim within her oceans

Sweet and warm

There's no storm, my love

You're my Everything

So beautiful...

And I am near, I am always with you in my heart and in Spirit. Never forget, just put out your hand and you will feel mine. 

I feel my voice slowly returning, a nudging deep within, longing to escape. I've been so silent, my heart so raw and my voice simply trapped. Much of my life's work lost. So much loss...and silence. I realize I am grieving, emotions coming up that have been trapped and silenced. They want to come out now, out through me, to be released and poetry (and music) has always been my way to express what is buried so deep. Still the words do not come, not taking shape but here I am, writing. Not poetry (yet) but writing.  Thank you. 

I am very much drawn to the Willow recently, as I have been off and on for much of my life. The energy is much needed. Here's a good article about the power of the willow. 

From the article:  "This movement on the emotional level, of allowing the emotions to come through to the surface, is the power of the willow's essential energy. Deep emotional pain blocks the energy of the body and can cause many illnesses. The willow will allow the person to move through the many levels of sadness, express the pain though tears and grief, and, by moving through these emotions, facilitate healing."

Ah, yes...exactly...

I am still and wait here in the silence...

Years of silence.

When I am down and, oh, my soul so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

Celtic Woman You Raise me Up

I have been quiet, oh so quiet, no doubt. Deep in my cave, down in the Underworld, stinging myself repeatedly. But it is time to rise again, to watch the vegetation grow, to sow seeds and create. Hades can stay below and leave me the hell alone.

There are new kernals, small gems crystallizing, sparkling little bits wanting to be shaped and molded into form. Strange how they've been there all along, waiting to be mined...I just haven't had the strength to do the digging for some time now. The weight of Hades upon me, stifling me, swallowing my energy, using me up.

I've shifted the weight, I've escaped and I see the light of the Sun trickling through. That's all I need, a tiny thin sliver of light, to make things grow. And so here I am...almost me, but not quite. A new version of me, old hidden scars healing, and I know the more recent scars, ones that don't run quite so deep, will mend in time. 

I'm in the process of rescuing tons of my old poetry from mini drives and converting them into usuable form. I will share some here as I make progress. A lot of my work was lost when I lost my poetry site but there is still quite a bit available on my pages at Author's Den  I am searching high and low for my poetry and articles but it will take some time, a labor of love.

Here's a poem I have recently found and converted:

Clash of Tides and Shore

Discord -

Movement, in, around, misstep

At the conjunction,

Your soul wrapped around mine,

Tripping and falling, merging in a clash,

Lightning ripping through,

Streaks of hellish heaven dipping down

To tantalize, electrify, tear us in two -

A sizzle, a spark, flash flood of emotion…

The timing was off (or was it?),

The song sung out of rhythm,

The instruments out of tune.

Discord -

Words not spoken hold the power,

So refrain, retrain, kiss the back of my hand,

Dip into the frenzy within,

It’s not as peaceful as you thought, is it?

The clash of the tides and shore, quiet heartache,

Tiny grains of sand washing away,

Scuttling crabs rushing in the surf,

Trapped in the storm, swollen in their shells…

The timing was off,

A humming drone - words you say,

An eclipse hidden within the rain…

Dena L Moore,  June 26, 2007

Do you know me? Really know me? This is both the question and the answer.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

I miss you

Saturn-Neptune

New thoughts - a breakthrough?? I don't know but let's see.

The Saturn - Neptune connection is a paradox allowing both partners the opportunity to grow beyond the everyday morality and help establish new ways of relating for future generations. It isn't about chaos nor necessarily destroying existing structures but rather accommodating a new way of relating that may - ok, will - go against the GRAIN OF COMMON SOCIETY. If the two partners are open and willing to experiment, they will find (perhaps over years time) that they do not necessarily NEED to be together in a common manner; despite this, the relationship may indeed be one of the most important they will ever experience. There is an opportunity for great joy - and great pain - but underlying the connection is the need to learn how to COMMUNICATE clearly and ACCOMMODATE the mundane obstacles and security ties that were created prior to the relationship until both partners are at a place where they can make the necessary changes that would grant them the 'favor' of joining together in both Spirit and Physicality. This is a MYSTICAL connection that the majority of the population would not understand or bless, because it's very essence strikes a blow at ingrained societal patterns of relating. This is one of the PRIMARY purposes of the Saturn-Neptune connection - to go BEYOND, to learn to LOVE unconditionally. It has the potential to rock many boats - Neptune's Earthquakes - and unsettle the classic vanguard that was put in place centuries ago.

Quite often one partner will grow too fearful and may need to fall back into a place of societal acceptance. The fear can destroy the connection and create an abundance of difficulties not only for the lover they abandon, but also for their own Soul's growth. In other words, entering into such a relationship is an opportunity but should not be taken lightly...karma will pull them together but if they refuse to do their individual work, the relationship will falter or they will separate for a while. It takes TWO people pulling together, loving one another enough to make room for the more mundane (Saturn) responsibilities of the partner until such a time that the challenges are overcome or fade away. Life is in a constant state of flux...to abandon a soul love due to insecurity or societal expectation is the equivalent of castrating the self on a Soul level. It is the same thing as finding the SELF as lacking or undeserving of experiencing a love the reaches deep into the Soul and manifests on a spiritual level no matter if the physical relationship is severed. It is hard work but with the greatest potential to discover the deeper mysteries of a Soul connection. Contrary to what others have written and believe, Soulmate relationships are not necessarily easy...but in general, much of the trouble comes from the EXTERNAL world and external SOCIETAL beliefs and obligations. The relationship itself may well be easy, loving, and very connected when able to function freely. Unfortunately those involved in such difficult circumstances may be unable to find a way to navigate the relationship without resorting to severing - the paradox of being deeply in love and loving and having others view the relationship as immoral or destructive is a challenge. How to be true to the Self and to Love when others would judge the relationship so severely? A relationship of this magnitude requires great courage and a willingness to obey the CALL from Spirit, despite the obstacles, despite the potential 'double-life' the partners may have to live for years in order to manifest the potential and discover what they have to offer the world together.

Just a kiss in the moonlight

Lady Antebellum lyrics:

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take this slow
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch in the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right...





Oh how I so so so so so so so so so love long slow kisses...there is nothing sexier or more sensual than lingering kisses, two souls merging, tasting, loving one another...such depth of intimacy. Tonight I could kiss for hours...gentle stroking, touching, whispering. I'm in a soft mood, so open and thankful and loving. I feel inspired and perhaps that is how it is meant to be, my Soul has been touched so deeply and unexpectedly...I feel humbled and delicate, yet somehow so loved in a very unusual way.

I can't believe how quickly time is flying by! I am looking forward to having my own space and own place and some freedom.

So I am rambling...it's been a strange day but I feel more relaxed and happier than I have since Seattle. I am truly blessed and I have nothing but love and smiles to give at the moment...oh, and kisses, I have plenty of those too, LOL

In the heart of all that matters

I am blessed.
In the heart of my heart
The Goddess rises, her arms spread wide,
Welcoming, enfolding all that is in the center
Of the Universe,
In the heart of all that matters.
This is the way, the path, the light,
The duality a reality,
Both sides equal, moving circle,
Ouroboros.
I am blessed.
Let me give thanks for the love I have to share,
The food I have to eat, the friendships old and new,
Let me give thanks.
I welcome the energy of the Universe to funnel through me,
I am a channel for the light.
Let me give thanks for my SP, for my children, for the long
Dark byways of my Soul leading me into serenity.
I am what I am. I am blessed.
I am before you, Lady. I am before you, Lord.
I am your child, consecrated in the Light.
I honor you both, in good times and bad,
In the darkness of the Mystery,
In the brilliance of Metatron's Light, through the Rainbow
Of my future land, where I will tread softly and kiss the Earth.
I am blessed, so blessed be.

So I am thinking of my SP and the tarot reading he had done...he doesn't realize that he covers his emotions so well, I don't think. Or maybe he does know. I hope he does know that I am here for him, that my heart and arms are open, and that I love him so. I never really thought of myself as the Queen of Swords and I wish that I knew what layout the reader was using so I could analyze and interpret my placement in that reading. Yet, I do see that it was/is me, especially after reading this interpretation online:

The Queen of Swords

The Queen of Swords indicates a woman who is blessed (or cursed) with sharp perception, and highly honed intuition. She is acutely analytical, with a razor-sharp ability to get to the heart of a situation, seeing exactly what is, rather than what others would wish her to see.

She is a private woman, unwilling to let people too close to her until she is satisfied she thoroughly understands their motivations. But once won as a friend, she is unfailingly loyal, honest and supportive.

She's usually very intelligent, with a dry sense of humour. Her penetrating insight will often reveal aspects of themselves to others that they had previously been unable to grasp - thus she is a capable therapist, teacher or leader.

The woman represented by this card will be experienced in the flow of life, understanding a great deal about both the great triumphs, and the deepest failings of the race. Her clarity and measured expression will be of great value at times of confusion and sadness.

Of course this was in the upright position, otherwise it would mean I was a cold-hearted bitch. While I admit I can be when pissed, it isn't my general nature. God I am in so much pain tonight...I better go.

A little boost

Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.

Andre Gide


Whatever you can do, or dream you can - Begin it. Boldness has genius, magic and power in it. Begin it now.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe


There is no chance, no destiny, no fate, that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Words of Wisdom before 8 am

• No matter what, stay present
• Do not turn away or turn completely within, despite disappointments
• Keep your heart and mind open, as this is the only way to see clearly
• Remain generous with your time and affection; do not spread negativity
• Embrace the world and the people within it; recognize that those who are lost need guidance, not punishment or banishment
•  Do not shy away from new people or new opportunities; explore the world and what it offers
• Let go of the material world battle, which has worsened recently
• Love, love, love

Never summon anything you can't banish...Get a taste of the Old Religion. Lick a witch.  LOL I could use a licking for sure.

Dreaming Of You

Dreaming Of You ~ Selena

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room, dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside? Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you, yes, I do

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room, dreaming about you and me

Corazon
(I can't stop dreaming of you)
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
(I can't stop dreaming of you)
Como te necesito
(I can't stop dreaming of you)
Mi amor, como te exstraño

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said, "I love you," I love you too

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room, dreaming with you endlessly

Dreaming with you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room, dreaming with you endlessly
(I'll be dreamin')

Dreaming of you tonight
(Endlessly)
And I'll be holding you tight
('Till tomorrow)
Dreaming with you tonight!
(Endlessly)
(Endlessly)
(Endlessly)
(Dreaming)

Kō ka 'uhane

Hikiwawe ka 'ike...pā makani, e lele iki ana! Alana pāka'uwili. I understand the depth of what I am seeing and feeling...the connection. And now out of the blue, I am communicating with some new person who has had a LEGITIMATE Metatron experience (so rare, I'm impressed) and somehow I've made a new connection I never made before. Venusian Metatron. Cherokee-Hawaiian. Tribal essence, tribal genetics...the spiral buried in our blood and the snake-energy, the rainbow.

So many are awakening and I need to learn more patience with them. They have so many questions about things that are, to me, so obvious and have been since I was very young. Once I remove myself more from the concrete jungle and the schedules of the rat race which are forced upon me, I may find a clear-view to sustain myself and those I am 'teaching.' 90% of the 'work' is unpaid and hidden, yet the gratification outshines any paycheck.

I feel so calm and centered when I pull back away from those I now call the 'negatives.' As I lift my vibration, those I choose to relate with will also be lifted.

This is fantastic...the absolute truth, posted by some anonymous user on a board:

"Duality indicates the mental plane of consciousness and you are experiencing the collective human mind. What you are seeing is that the collective mind is truly psychotic - twisted, perverted, sado-masochistic, paranoid - schizophrenic and psychopathic in the truest sense of the word.

As long as you look to the collective insanity (its experts, philosophies, gurus and religions) for your answers, you'll get what you've got.

The real universe is not split and fragmented and truly works from harmonious balance i.e. love, truth, beauty, etc. You can not get there holding hands with the "we."

Use your heart chakra and third eye to commune with the universe and you will be able to walk out of the prison of the mind (the realm of the megalo-maniacal satanic god of illusions) and into a field of infinite intelligence and love.

It is no more complicated than that."

God/dess, it is so PERFECT a statement. Divine insight.

And from a book I'm reading, called "The Secrets and Mysteries of Hawaii"

"In this world of chaotic change people are clearly divided into two camps. There are those of us who have become more fear-based and are with-drawing, retreating from life. They are the serious people who call themselves 'practical' by never going forward and by hedging all their bets with extra insurance. Their dreams are based only upon security. Their goals become more and more oriented towards relief from the drudgery of life.


Then there are those who have decided to get on with the joy that life can be. At every age they are realizing that we are entering into a new dimension of exploration. Resistance and competition for them are being exchanged for an all-out embrace of life. For these people of all ages, the magic has begun to pour back into their lives. Insurmountable problems dissolve. From health issues to their pocketbooks, things simply begin to work themselves out. What is their secret weapon against a world of chaos and confusion? It all has to do with attitude."

I want to experience as much joy as possible and I want to impart that sense of optimism and joy to help lift the vibration of those who are struggling to awaken. I lose my sense of pure Spirit when I am surrounded by the negative collective... I no longer view my move to Hawaii as an escape, but rather as a joyous adventure, one in which I can experience the Universe as it truly is, outside of the dualistic, warring nature of the collective. I will find my center and within my center I will experience bliss and be welcomed home.

I am the FOOL, in all Divine wisdom.

25 degrees Scorpio: An X-ray Photograph

Ok...so he is a hell-raiser and has trouble with the bottle, but I still can't take my eyes off the Irish eye candy. It's not like I have to deal with him in real life, so no worries. LOL  I can just enjoy the visuals. I especially like these two I found tonight.

An interesting chart to contemplate more in the future:

Not sure if this means I am wrong...I'm still working on the issue in my head and trying to read it all in the context of my life, what I know about myself, and what I suspect regarding my soul's intent. I do have Aquarius prenatal moon. I wish I had someone to chat with about it all but alas, I'm left to my own devices...besides, maybe it is best to work through it on my own.

25 degrees Scorpio: An X-ray Photograph

UNSTINKINGBELIEVABLE

There should be a law of some sort...